Woman on edge

Have just sent a terse email to my group members - guess what? There is no cathartic outlet for anger. :S

Having a party on 6th of May, hopefully. Invites and address will follow suit, when my bloody thesis have been submitted. Just keep the date open, yeah? Dearest friends (i.e. Farah, Ain, Azah, SK, Amal and Banu), pls give a shout if the date is inconvienient for you. Will try to find a date suitable for all.

because I have better things to do

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

More, more and more!

Really I should be doing sth productive. Ha ha.

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

but i do not bore my friends with the results of my pondering...ah- ha. :D

hoot and a half plus one

Again, courtesy of Ain

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Hilary Duff

"I'm sheddingShedding every colorTrying to find a pigment of truthBeneath my skin" You're sweet and cute, but a little more complex than that.

Who's" Your Inner Pop Princess?

No way! Oh well, could be worse...like say, Britney. *gag*

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: PhilosophyMusicTheologyArtHistoryForeign language

What Should You Major In?

ha ha. and so i am.

Registry

My house is shaping up slowly but surely. Intended big move: after exams! So, be ready for parties after the fifth.

In the meantime, for those who want to buy me housewarming presents (not that its obligatory, really) I am putting up a list of stuff, just to make everyone's life easier (hee hee...this idea is v popular amongst some quarters!)

For those who are as prosaic as me, the following is a list of things I need:

Pillows
Cushions
Knives and block
Ladles, that thing for frying things (in Malay: senduk, sudip), tongs.
Tupperware of all shapes and sizes
Rice Cooker
Blender
Push pedal rubbish bin

For the more romantic, things I want:
Crabtree and Evelyn Drawer Liners (Lavender)
or C&E drawer sachet stuff
Plain wood frames
Marks and Spencers scented tealights (pear)
red mosaic glass tealight holders (i think banyan tree or british india, or lims at holland shopping centre)

For the record, my colour scheme is cream and pale blue. :)

Sproglets

Here are the rules society never live by:

Never ask someone unemployed whether they have found a job
Never ask someone single when they are getting married
Never ask someone married when they are having children

You know what I hate more than Smug Marrieds? Smug UN-marrieds. You know the kind - all they ever want is to be married and have children - and think that is the only legitimate thing in life: shocking, these (of course, lonely) career girls. They might say they don't need a man, but really in their hearts they want a man, and 2.5 children. And of course, if one gets married, naturally, they want children.

The thing I can't stand is, the view that children are the be all and end all of one's existance. That children should come first in life. That there can be no fanthomable reason why someone would put off getting married, or having children or have an abortion.

Reasons not to ask if someone is having children:
1. It's too intrusive and offensive (hello, is like asking someone if they are having sex! or "are you infertile?" Take your pick.)
2. What? Do I look fat? Enough said.

Something worse, (that I have been getting), why aren't you having children? As if I owe an explaination to that person (what the hell, right?) for why I am not having children. Bad enough the person holds me to his/her standard, what I have to explain myself? None of your damn business.

Oh wow. This girl has a lot of rage. Ha ha. Anyway, very few people can ask me the question: best friends and immediate family - whom I know do it out of love and care. Not some random extended family or people I meet once a year if there happened to be a gathering.

Canned

Shows I have enjoyed but did not live long enough

1. Space:Above and Beyond

One of my favourite sci-fi shows ever. That is saying a lot. Who's the real enemy - aliens or humans? Who started the war? What started the war? Ambiguity in war is one of my favourite themes in sci-fi (my favourite books - Ender's game [Orson Scott Card], Conqueror series [Timothy Zahn], for example) and this is a show that explores the theme. Mix in themes of racial segregation, some shades of Vietnam War and racism. Coupled with great characterization and casting, a great show that was cut short.

2. Queen of Swords

A female Zorro! Super camp, super cool show. Undercurrent of tension between Captain Grisham and Tessa...mostly, one-sided (generated by el capitan) and futile. Mainly, cause he's the baddie and she's Zorro. But the romantic in me can hope...at least until the show got axed!

3. Jonny Zero

Why this entry? The answer lies with Jonny Zero, a show I have been following (Thursdays, 1 am, Channel 5). I recently found out, during one of my boredom-induced net searches, that it has been cancelled. V sad.

Basically, it follows the life of Jonny Calvo, an ex-con trying to keep on the straight and narrow, but always landing into more trouble as he tries to help people (a great reason NOT to help people, innit? ha ha). Has a "Lock, Stock" feel to it. One gripe - weird camera work. Still, good storyline, dialogue and has the whole (realistic?) NY/Puerto-Rican vibe that somehow works for the show.

4. Bugs

A long ago Brit tech-spy show. The appeal of the show lies in the characters and simple storylines. Never fails to amuse me each week.

Shows that should have been cancelled while the going was good

1. Desperate Housewives

I used to love this show - until it degenerated to sleazy affairs. Snappy dialogue seemed to have died with (not so beloved) Rex, but really, the show died when Carlos went to prison.

2. X-files

Conspiracy theories? Alien abductions? Scully being subjected to both?! Yawn.

3. Charmed
Three weird sisters hand in hand. Then, one threw a hissy fit and left. Lo, and behold. The illegitimate love-child takes her place. And then there were three. Again. (Don't get me started on bad identity change and awful witch-let.)

4. Angel

Computer uploads? Gone is my favourite Gunn. Plus, more angst than ha ha-s. Not my idea of a good time.

Only fools and horses work for a living

My last exam is on the 5th of May... that is two months away, I think. Hopefully, would be the last exam in NUS, that is. Cause I want to graduate! I don't ever want to see NUS again (translation: don't want to deal with the admin, wretched unhelpful toads that they are). Burn them bridges and leave!!!! So, for the moment, am trying to keep my head above water, and go through the motions. I used to think I wanted to do Masters if I got second upper or above (stipend!), but now, NO! Like many of my friends, am looking for a job but dragging my feet with applications. Am balking at the thought of working all of a sudden. :S

New friends...and old

Woke up at six (that's a.m.!) to do my tutorial and ended up just printing notes (cause I don't know how to do and am asking dear sister to help). Yesterday, received two friendster invite - one from a new friend :D, and the other, surprisingly, from someone I have not seen since primary school. I am amazed that she remembered me - especially since I needed some time to figure out who she was. Ha ha. We did use to hang out a lot in primary school, so perhaps I shouldn't be surprised. It's just that my memory for people is bad, and, somehow, narcisstically, I hold everyone else to my standards.

Having accepted the request, and logging in friendster after a long time (really, if it wasn't for Adik's blog!), I looked through my 55 friends, and realized that my memory was as bad as I thought it was. Translation: it took great effort for me to remember some people. :S Not having a memory like Azah (who incidentally is a great friend to have, esp when it comes to prompting one *me* during social events!), I forgot some people I had on my list.

This reviewing one's friendster list evokes a sense of nostalgia - if not for friendster, I would not be able to contact the people I rarely talk to, but would like to "dengar berita" (hear about? know news of? not the best translator in town, evidently). There are people from my uni days (eman, san) whom I have not seen online and wonder how they are. It's really quite...well, not quite fun really...but interesting (?) to flip through one's memories.

Incidentally, have you had the experience of flipping through your albums and not knowing who you took pictures with? Ha ha. I used to write names on the backs of pictures cause I know how bad my memory can be.

Last gasp

"Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge
And I'm thinking
Maybe six feet ain't so far down"

--- One last breath, Creed.