Getting ould

I have always thought that at a certain point in my life I would feel like an adult - namely when I got married. But I don't feel it. On the contrary, I feel immature, childish and foolish most of the time. Heh. Nothing new. I wonder, if there would ever come the time when I am 'adult'. Not that I really care one way or another but it is a fact of life that one would grow up eventually. It's just not happening to me. Then again, I had thought I would get married at 27. That's some years yet. Maybe I will figure it out then.

What is happening though is a pervading sense of ennui. Oh, God. Surburban ennui, bleagh, bleagh. At least I haven't made a movie about it. Curiously enough, I find on my friends blog the same emotions expression in various ways but all defining the same unease. There is something bugging us and we have no idea what it is. Do we lead such unfulfilling lives? I don't think so. But still there is disatisfaction, irritation etc. (As my GP teacher keep pointing out, "etc" implys there more to be said, only that the writer do not know the facts. In this case, it would be true.) The problem is I (perhaps, we) do not know what the problem is. For me at least, if I do know it, I can get started on that action plan. Even if that plan don't work, I feel better. :D

So, taking my cue from my dearest friend, Ain, who had listed down the things she has to be thankful about some time back, I shall do the same, if just to remind myself - stop whinging! Heh.

1. I have a loving and wonderful family (husband included) and am secure in such unconditional love.
2. I got to live in London.
3. I have a few fantastic friends and no annoying acquaintences.
4. I can read. And watch Tv.
5. My brain functions well enough.

That's about it, really. I'm sure there's other things I should be grateful for but it's just not hitting me yet. It is an interesting exercise, I must say. Not really great for a reminder but it shows what I value most. That's what I got out of it anyway. *shrug*

Just to balance boring philosophical what-nots, a line worth a thousand inadequate words:

"Well, we can't stand around here doing nothing, people will think we're workmen" - Spike Milligan

Death and Taxes

Today was another boring day. I went to post DS9 DVD, dropped off my drycleaning, and went to the library. Took out three books - two of which are Prachett's Discworld series. Am a big fan. Hilarious stuff. Then, went and bought "Soul Music", which has Death in it. Yay to Death!

All in all, another boring day. But in a good sort of way. Do you ever have such normal days? I love normal days. Seriously. I think being normal is underrated. Everyone (generalization) wants to be different. But try being different for a day. It's not...normal. Ha ha. The ironic thing is that I want to be normal. But wanting to be normal is not normal. Well, although, I think I'm different, which is what a lot of people think they are, which makes me somewhat normal, right? That would be a relief.

Err, head spinning yet? Don't worry. Just being me. Ha ha.

Finally, another Spike Milligan quote: "I can't see the sense in it [his honorary CBE] really. It makes me a Commander of the British Empire. They might as well make me a Commander of Milton Keynes - at least that exists."

Heh.

It's raining, it's pouring

I love the smell of after-rain. You know how the air just smells of water. As if all the pollutants have been washed from the atmosphere and everything is fresh and clean. At some point during the day, every part of London had been drenched with severe thunderstorms. They call it thunderstorms, I call it Singapore. The usual heavy downpour we get back home. Sigh. How I miss it. I do really! And now that London is hotting up ( the heat is something terrible, I declare!), I am looking so much to going back home. Home...home...home. Where there is a roti prata at every corner, not to mention, mee rebus, rojak, sate, sambal tumis ketam/udang (chilli crab/prawn), yum. Hmmm....I guess anyone wanting to see me when I come back have to wait until I have eaten my fill!

Today, perhaps because of the weather, I find myself missing Singapore, NUS, and everything I usually find humdrum or loathe. Strange this heavy weather, eh.

Anyway, have been away from the whole net thing. The crash after the two weeks of going out has been terrible. I've been doing, literally, nothing these few days but to eat and sleep. Not even TV! Well, other than the odd DS9...Dr. Bashir....Heh. Sheepish face. Time to gerrof my butt and do something. But what? Ha ha. What a puzzle. I don't do much usually either. Sigh.

On other news, my parents have safely returned (my mum, as I suspected, had the time of her life and 'forgot' about her own children. Sniff). Beloved Adik had her consultations - bally students. Beloved Kakak, where are you??? It's time for an online pow wow. Oh yeah. Nazir did sth bad and made up for it by buying me shoes - shoes I specifically described for him. And he got it right! Heh. How can one not forgive any transgressions? Double heh.

Knackered....absolutely knackered

Yow! One whole week of madness. Am taking a short breather while Nazir's family sleeps - they are still on Singapore time - jet lag and all that. Anyway, just sent Adik to the airport yesterday and she had arrived safe and sound. Thank God. :D I miss her already - the teasing about veg, the going out (even though I gripe all the time). We went to Cornwall - Adik's trip really. Saw Tintagel Castle, Land's End, and had Cornish pasties. Yum! It was a good holiday, despite the quite resort-ish hotel. At the moment, Nazir's whole family is here - it's quite fun. My cousin is at Colchester, will be picking her up tomorrow prob. It's June holidays and everyone is descending on us like a pack of wolves. Ha ha. Fun wolves, though. I still miss Adik, esp cuddlies. But still, slightly one more month to home! Am quite excited actually. Meanwhile, my parents were at Palestine/Israel, and is now doing their umrah. My mum is having the time of her life, I suppose. This is her dream trip. Though, I can only guess since she doesn't know how to open SMS, let alone return them. But since she did not even bother to call us everyday - well, that shows how excited and happy my overprotective mother is. Hee hee. It's kind of strange to go more than a week without hearing her voice, nonetheless.

To the dearly departed

My sister is arriving today!!!!! Joy oh joy! Three more hours to huggies, kissies, jiggles etc etc. And Hornblower madness. Am estatic.

Watched Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith yesterday. Post-exam celebrations with Nazir. After waiting for half an hour after the official screening time, wading through ads, the movie finally started. A bit much, I thought - half an hour! But I saw the trailer for Fantastic Four - there's Ioan Gruffudd in it, the guy who played Hornblower. Am SO watching that. Another show I would watch - but on HBO - Mr and Mrs Smith, Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt. Don't really like either, but the script seems funny - v. like "The Big Hit".

I didn't really enjoy Star Wars, truth be told. I thought it was rather messy, had way too much unneccessary battles, which seemed mostly to be to show off SFX, quite bad dialogue at spots. It only served to give visuals to the back story - which anyone watching 4,5, and 6 would know already - without adding depth to it. The only part I enjoyed was the final battle between ObiWan and Anakin. Ewan McGregor did the snotty crying thing quite well...one can really feel that Obi Wan hates having to kill Anakin, his own loss of a brother and friend. Sigh. Ooh, Yoda and Palpatine was so cute together. Grr, grr, buzz, buzz. Yoda is so sarky. Heh. After the battle, the mop-up was badly executed. Cut to spaceship, to Alderaan, then to Tatooine - very amateur editing, with screen "wipe-out" a la Windows whatisname. The Padme and Anakin thing was better - less purple prose-y. Hayden Christensen did a good job on Anakin though - v weak-minded, but with powers (what a dangerous combination) person. One can see that he's not really bad, just driven by fear and anger. Ripe for Sith apperenticeship - note, he didn't even attain "Master" rank in the Sith world. Ha ha. He's a born servant. Q. sad, especially when all he wanted was to save his beloved wife. Sniff. What an idiot. A cute one though. :D

On the whole, not really a good movie; something which depends on the francise to attract viewers.

Yay to Adik coming....tak sabar menanti, woo woo.