Freedom
Have just had one of the shittiest weeks of my life. Details will just bore everyone but let's just say NUS administration sucks. So much so that I am reduced to swearing.
Curiously, I have ceased caring about my grades and what I would achieve. My attitude is a stark contrast to many of my fellow students who are busting ass to get that 1st class etc. Me, I find that I do not care. Even comments on my presentation, as part of those evaluation thingummy, have failed to elicit anything but an 'Oh really?'. I used to be a stressed basket case when it comes to presentations - especially the graded ones. Now, I don't care! I really don't - it's a very strange sensation not to be worrying about grades for once in my life. I must have given up the bad habit. Or just given up.
I guess one can say that I am sick of structured education. Having tasted the manna from heavens (reading what I like, not what I have to, at my own pace), honours seems a little hellish in contrast. Not to say that I am not learning anything; just that getting that information seems to be not worth the effort.
posted by az/fah at
8:26 AM
4 Comments:
Mm hmm, guess i can recognise how that feels, dear Az..
well, 1 way U cld take it fm here's, to tell Urself it's just another new Beginning - with its own attendant promises (along with all the incomprehensibly harsh moments too, yes)
Try not to let it get to U
- there are places where things can get worse, after all.. it's smth one realises as we encounter new (admin-related) experiences and new places.
And abt the disinterestedness in giving Ur All in the frenetic race - when it happened to me, i'd just told myself tt maybe it's also quite a gd thing..
this way, U won't be totally stressed out & imptly, U won't be working just for the deadlines, but more cos' U've actually found smth engaging in each (or most) of ur modules, so Ur work's more a fruit of ur interest in 'em.
have felt tt perhaps, this's much better (say, than my old, rule/order-governed days/attitude in sec sch) cos what we'll rem later in life will inevitably be what U truly enjoyed learning, rgt?
Well, no more preaching..
Just want ya to know U aren't alone, dear chum:)
So Cheer Up, stay cool & Go for it!
All Best for Evtg & Luv,
me*
Thats because babybun is a tai-tai. sort of. lovies!
THAT TOO WILL PASS :)
WHEN THE DARK CLOUDS AND STORM CLEAR AWAY, YOU'LL SEE THE SHINING STARS AT NIGHT, AND THE BRIGHT SUN THE NEXT MORNING. MEANWHILE, HOLD ON TO ME TIGHTLY . WE'LL WEATHER THE STORM TOGETHER.
LOTS OF LOVE FR CROUCH END
I feel so loved!!!! Thanks to all. :D
Nazir can write Hallmark cards. ;)
Adik funny.
Banu, thanks for your words of encouragement. Yes, positive thinking - it's a new beginning! (Or ending. Ha ha. Err...my negative side)
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